Yet another year is out!!!

I normally do not write or worry about the years that are bygone, when you get visited yet again and reminded yet again that your time is running out. Is this year a special year?. Are the issues that we encountered or solved more important to receive a mention when the time makes its call on your life?. Is one running away from reality or learning new realities as time makes it relentless forward movement?. Is truth changing it's color or social structures and moral and ethical questions varying in it's true interpretations within oneself?. Is the rigor of the modern day world of black and white representation in success and failure, with an ever moving goal-post too much to digest?. Or if I were to die today, would i have been comfortable with what i have done with my life so far?. And is means more important than the end or is the end in itself the most important?. If means were more important the death question would get settled easily, while if end was more important then, it is difficult to really answer that question honestly; So does one really look back at life as lost opportunities or great experiences and experiments?. Is doing or saying or achieving or falling in love following ones heart so important to make the fear of death irrelevant; or is it a mere manifestation of the social conditioning that makes one think that these are important? Sometimes, what that is unsaid and not attempted are more important in this journey, for it defines more of ones internal and external conditioning; than what we try to do and succeed or fail.